Honestly, I’m not sure how to end this series on the ending of Midday Connection (a women’s program on Moody Radio). And, I feel a little selfish (indulgent?) about posting this with all of the pain and sadness in the world. I’ll write more about that soon.
More and more people are commenting that it’s time for me to move on from the pain of my job loss. Really? It’s been 2 months since my job ended. Two months. Am I to have all my grief processed, confusion settled, fear assuaged, doubt resolved in that amount of time? I suspect that people mean well by encouraging me to “move on” and I know that people process grief and change differently.
So, I’m moving to a more quiet grief and processing. This will take time and the days when I feel lost in my own life is NORMAL. If you are swimming in the depth of grief and others don’t understand, know that you’re not alone. You’re not crazy. You are human. Our fast-paced and results-focused culture usually only allows time for a quick, light skimming on the surface of grief. It’s hard on the people around us to stay with us in our pain. Confession: I get it. I’ve been impatient in the past when friends have gone through deep grief – weary of hearing about the sadness. So, it takes work and wisdom for us to stay engaged in the healing process with God – without becoming consumed by it, losing perspective, or denying it.
Here’s the deal. I’m becoming more grateful that I didn’t slide right into another job right away. If I had, I suspect that I wouldn’t be digging in to this deeper work that God is doing in my life. I feel that I’ve been given a gift. A gift I don’t really want, but alas. That’s part of the trust work God is doing in my life.