Planted

I have spent a bunch of my life feeling invisible – unimportant – unworthy of taking up space.

As God began working in this area of my life, I heard a Tom Petty on the radio and, while I’m not a big fan of his, one line of the song would literally bring me to tears: “Think of me what you will, I’ve got a little space to fill.”  I cried because I didn’t believe that… and I wanted to!  I wanted to feel worthy of the physical space I took up.

It’s been a long road for me as I combat the lies I’ve believed for so many years – and those old voices still like to pester me from time to time.  I’ve tried to incorporate reminders in my life to help me along the way.  I created a simple piece of art that I keep in my bathroom.  The background is full of lively, messy, bright colors and splashed across the front are the words: “You are definitely NOT invisible!  Did you act like you were today?”  Each day I have the opportunity to answer that question as I reflect on my day while brushing my teeth before heading to bed.

I also do yoga occasionally and I love the Mountain Pose.  It’s simple – just standing, really – but, a key to the pose is to fully feel your feet grounded on the floor, feel your legs solidly underneath you. I often imagine that pose when I feel shaky inside. I imagine myself internally doing the Mountain Pose as I breathe a prayer for courage and truth, reminding myself that I belong here – I am “allowed” to take up space and feel my feet planted on the floor.

What reminders do you have in your life of the work God in doing in you?